“ ‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’ ”(Jeremiah 29:11, NIV).
It’s time to dig your heals in and hold on to the promises in your heart. Stir up those God-given dreams today and watch Him pour out His favor and blessing upon you and fulfill every desire in your heart!
How do you know when what you have is true faith?
How do you know that what you are saying, is declaration of ‘Truth’
Or just plain old saying shit, for the hell of saying shit, to make you feel better?
And why do we need to ‘feel’ better?
When they told me, “Feelings are false” , “Don’t follow your feelings”,
“They are a lie” . “They are from the devil.”
“The only way forwards is God’s word”
But God’s word says a hell of a load of stuff that I just do not see true in my life.
I have an illness!!!
A lot of people CHOSE not to recognise that
A lot of people Chose to tell me , it’s my choice
A lot of people just do not get it.
I wonder how they would they feel,
If they were me?
I don’t mean, if they had my life, my experiences, my memories, my feelings.
I simply mean
If their brains or minds were wired this way?
I’ve heard it said before
Borderline Personality Disorder is like the emotional equivalent of third degree burns.
Anything that touches it slightly,
just hurts. ALOT.
Like sometimes, the pain is excruciating.
When all you did, was brush by
Who would choose that?
Some call it , hypersensitive
Some call it immaturity
Some call it attention seeking
It is not.
And it’s not fun and it’s not a choice
and it hurts
It fucking hurts!
Every single part of you screams out in pain,
But the very same parts of you wish you could just push it down and stay quiet
Better still, not feel it at all.
Just be numb.
But that’ s all I can be sometimes.
Have you ever wished to have cancer?
Plenty of times
I’ve even been jealous of those that are suffering with it
How fucked up is that?
They are seriously suffering and I am jealous
I guess cancer just seems more real.
People understand things that they can see.
But not what I have.
But what I have
It’s not imaginary
and it’s not the lurgy either
You can’t catch this
But it is real
And I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy
Because being in this much pain
Really, is no life.
And so I turn to my faith.
And it gets me through
Well, just for a moment
Cos really, honestly
How do I know I have faith in the first place?
This video has so much truth in it